But much has been happening and it feels like things are churning.
He was almost perfect. Very sweet, very romantic. He said I made his happiness two-fold.
Opal Lei: Besides my friend says I should ignore men.Lately, he had been barely responsive, even when he was logged in. I stopped messaging him, but he IM'd me again one day.
Opal Lei: She said if I ignore men, they'll fall in love with me more.
Almost: i am already fallen
Almost: cant go deep more
Alt#11: And I was thinking you were already bored with me.I asked him to at least respond to my messages even if his responses were just a quick kiss or a goodnight. He did a couple of times.
Almost: nah, not like that but i m really busy, u have seen it, most of the time i m on chat client like tonight
Alt#11: Well, men in SL have used being busy as an excuse to disappear, you know.
Almost: then next time onwards i will cc u my work
Then, Friday evening, he said he was going to bed to catch up on his sleep because he was only getting 4 to 5 hours of sleep for several weeks. An hour later, he showed up on my radar at Franks. I asked him if he couldn't sleep. He gave some vague excuse about catching up on news. I wondered why he was catching up on news at Franks; he said someone teleported him there.
I just caught him in a lie.
It's uncanny how history repeats itself. I was so pissed that I removed him from Alt#11's friends list right then and there, and from another alt's friends list also. But I had second thoughts about removing him from Opal's friends list. So he's still there. For now. I still give him the benefit of a doubt. Maybe because I too have fallen.
Still I was bothered enough, so that my interactions with other men are affected by it.
In the afternoon, I had very little patience for a new acquaintance who kept kissing and hugging for no reason, even though I just met him.
This evening, I realized that I had been too mean with another suitor, who had tried my patience for being so bossy and manipulative and inconsiderate since I met him a few weeks ago.
SilverSpoon: I like you a lot
SilverSpoon: don't hurt me again
Alt#11: then stay away
Alt#11: I have thorns.
Alt#11: Anyone who comes close gets hurt.
He logged off without a word. I suppose I hurt him again with that response.
The greater the pain inside, the sharper the spikes outside....